"Beary"

Friday, December 19, 2014

Chapter One


 The Stillness


            The grass was as worn as the thoughts of my mind, yet it writhed on, bent with the reluctance of an aging man in the coldest days of life. Freely it stretched its arms to touch all things, each blade reaching far beyond its grasp to embrace the fading warmth of autumn days. And we but strangers to this place in so early an hour walked without an upward glimpse across a great expanse. There beneath the elms we turned, and there within the moment we sought.
            It was November now, a season of shadows. The eastern thrush no longer sang. The last of the ardent leaves fell from ashen trees, and we rest upon its remains. I stood there at the edge of the woods, where pristine lawns collide with nature’s past and I looked back upon its path. There where the snakes and insects once crept; those lifeless, senseless creatures gave not one thought to anything or anyone.  There where they scurried amongst the twisted twigs, there where thistles grow and time forgot.  I wanted only to hold your hand and lessen your fears. But you held to your shimmering box.
            I drew closer. The wind was unruly and wanting, shyly tugging upon my sleeve. Its cold fingers crept into my heart like a thief into a pocket, robbing me of all I held. I pulled my jacket tighter, and you closed your eyes, but we cannot escape its bitter theft. We seemed so unlike them, you and I. For others felt little of that moment. Could they did hear the snapping signs or notice the flowers had lost their strength? Had they not seen the color stripped forest or the snowy dew upon the marble? They seemed as cheerful souls at winter’s door.

            You called my attention to those girls. How spiritedly they play, how beautiful their sterling dresses. “Look!” You whisper, how they skip hand in hand, one pulls forward and the other back. They laugh, they scream, they care not of season’s end. They make you smile, and I smile to you. For I know that you wish to be them once more, dancing happily with burning winds, blushingly falling for something in the pale green grass. 
           That is why I have brought you here, to this place where people cease to be themselves and tell their tales in solemn tone. So cast away all other thoughts. Be done with those that approach with straighter form and better manners. Though they feel your light, they do not see the sun within your eyes. Put away the silvery-blue box that stands between us. Let your ear touch upon my lips and let me once more feel your warmth upon my hand. Come hear the dream I had of you.
            “Who are you talking to?” Softly spoke a small boy that I once knew.
            “Her of course.” I replied.
            “Why doesn't she answer then?”
            “I think she wants to, but she’s doubtful of why I am here.” I turned to you, but you remained as stone. “I did not want to meet her here; I didn't want to tell her this way.”
            “Tell her what?” Unconsciously the young boy sat, his fingers interlaced, his stainless eyes upon your box.
            “The dream I had of the only girl I loved.” I confess against my will. But knew not what I awaited, for there was neither sound nor movement from either one. Therefore, with a heavy heart, I began.
            “I was ten when ten was not a better age to be, when parents abandon their young on winter nights, when a lack of food gave true hunger for living. Days were cynical; children were cruel. But from the cold I withdrew, water from rivers, warmth from the blazing sun. My mind turned to vengeance, my soul to hatred. Not toward those who tried and faltered, but rather for those that chose not to see. And so I ran one night.
            Into the tall grasses I fled, the wind upon my face and a fiery upon my back. My feet carried me faster than they have ever run. And for some time they remembered ever snag and ever snare in that vast blackish void that once hampered me from light. Until I had gone beyond all familiarity and reposed, fell to sleep in unclouded sight.
            Then in a dream I arose. Higher and higher I fleeted as I climbed the branches of a great white oak, beyond where I have ever been. The branches were but embracing arms stemming ever greener with me as we both ascended. My body no longer tired, my will no longer lead. I reached the top, high above that earthly view. And there upon that fragile branch she stood, the girl with umber eyes."